Jimmy McNeal

 
 

Apr 04, 2014

A Season of Change

Not many people can say that they were single, in a relationship, engaged, married, and got their best friend (aka their wife) pregnant all in a matter of 12 months. It's like I walked into a season of "Parenthood", only to realize, yup...this actually is true. Don't get me wrong, I'm thankful and humbled that God would write this story for Staci and I, but I also recognize that God has been using change as a means for my own sanctification. I'm one who doesn't like rapid change, but this has been the theme of my life these last 6 months. Transformation comes with every season and change follows those who walk through them. And if this is the case, an unbelievably changed man will be found at the end of this season of seasons. I feel like I'm not just walking through one season, but multiple. Recently, I've found myself seeing a dream come into fruition with recording my first solo album, all while learning how to be a husband who's now going to be a father who's began to have feelings of anxiety as our house lease ends July 1st, while trying to be a loving husband during pregnancy as changes at work affect the prayers of our band family and this run-on sentence continues because life brings about changes that come in waves we sometimes don't expect. The last 6 months have been the most wearisome yet remarkable 6 months of my life to date.

Even as we walk through one of the craziest seasons we've experienced, I can't help but see God's faithful hand in it all. 

Monday was by far one of the toughest days I've had during this time. You could say that I was at my wits end with simultaneously experiencing both joys and pains one after the other. I didn't know how to feel or react. I tried to spend some time reading my bible, but got distracted more often than not and found myself wanting to just eject and run away from it all. But God, God was faithful. My missional community met that night and we spent some time reading the scriptures together as a family. It's no coincidence that Matthew chapters 4-6 were the chapters we would be walking through Monday night. God knew how I'd feel, and the things that I needed to hear. As anxiety began to spring up in my heart and the days distractions began to arise, I read over and over again "do not be anxious". Conviction continued to strike its chord as Matthew 6:33 leaped from the pages...

"But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added unto you"

Those first seven words are what brought me to my knees later that night. "But seek ye first the kingdom of God....". I needed to be reminded of this truth. I needed God to tell me to seek after him, and not just read my bible and check it off the list for the day, but truly seek him and run to him in this time of difficulty, joy, beauty and chaos. This is what my heart truly needed, not the other 20 different "distractions" I thought would make me feel better that day. I needed Jesus.

Today, as I write this blog and reflect, I'm also reminded of this story of Mary and Martha from Luke 10.

"...Jesus entered a village. And a woman named Martha welcomed him into her house. And she had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet and listened to his teaching. But Martha was distracted with much serving. And she went up to him and said, "Lord, do you not care that my sister has left me to serve alone? Tell her then to help me." But the Lord answered her, "Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things, but one thing is necessary. Mary has chosen the good portion, which will not be taken away from her."" - Luke 10:38-42

Although we're walking through this season of seasons I want to be a man who's not so distracted with anxiousness, serving, troubles, or the joys of this world. But I pray that God would make me a man who sits at his feet and chooses the "good portion".

I want to encourage you today as you read this. Reflect on your own life and ask yourself, despite circumstances, have you chosen the good portion, which will not be taken away from you or have you chosen something else....?

My prayer for both you and I today is that we would choose the good portion and seek first His kingdom and righteousness.

Nothin' but love,

Jimmy

 


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